During Last Friday’s lunch with CEO of the company, i have impressed by a very inspiring story, the CEO of Ipsoser in Indonesia, who is a Christian has been awarded as the happiest CEO and so do the staffs of company, they have been awarded as the happiest staff, whats amazing is that the revenue of the company also recorded as the highest among Asia-pacific region. According to Richard, the secrect of it are the thankfulness and joyfulness.Therefore, My prayer for this job and my future career would be always be thankful and joyful. Even when you received hundreds of emails at Sunday night!

“Leave your country and your people, God said,” and for to the land i will show you.” Acts 7:3 Before, when i read this verse, i always wander is that means He wants me to go to Africa or North Pole. These days, i start to see through more meanings from it. Its definitely not where your body is, not even mind or heart, but a faith, a firmly condemned faith that in the end that you will be showed a way to Him. Thats the real success.

These days, I feel like i am facing trails everyday, either health problem or work problem, or family problem. It seems that there are crisis every moment in my life, and all of them were painful as hell, either physically or mentally or heartly. To be honest, there were moments I feel that i was given up by the Lord. But it also make me turn to His words, i found a lot inspiration from Job ‘s story. NO one has ever experienced brokeness as him, but he never lost his faith in Lord. Please made my faith as deep as Job, and be always with me, carry me through all the trails.

o LORD,God of heaven, the great and awesome God, let your ear be attentive and your eyes open to hear the prayer your servant is praying._Nehemiah 1:5-6

My days have passed, my plans are shattered,and so are the desires of my heart. _ Job 17:11

If dinners entice you,do not give in to them._proverbs 1:10

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those crushed in spirit._Pslam34:18

Today’s work was really discouraging, i hate data punching; i am still trying to find His purpose in all the process. The one thing i feel happy is that i was honest with my weakness today!

Vivid team & collegues,business card, new laptop,drip coffee machine,sight-view of the Central of the city…However,on the other side i understand clearly that soon the excitment will gone… So let me tell you the most excited thing is that i found worship gathering post inside the company!Now i understand how He has put a hand on the journey i ve taken so far,I still can not get what His purpose for this destination…And yes, i can not control everything, or anything. But i can do my best to commit to pray and bible study btw the tight working schedule, playing the role of light and salt that people would see Him through me.

Corinthians 2:9

Lord of glory. However, as it is written: 

“No eye has seen,

no ear has heard,

no mind has conceived

what God has prepared for those who

love him”

“He already prepared everything for us long time ago. We do not need to worry or fear at all.”

Hebrew 12:2

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at eh right hand of the throne of God.

“When we take our eyes from Jesus, but focus on the human being and circumstance, we got disappointed, and hurt.

1. It was quite interesting, I went through a very dark period last last week, that i still remembering that on Sunday morning, I couldn’t sleep whole night and I had this long walking along Han-river 5 am in one of the coldest morning. I cried out for help from you that I said I couldn’t find any joy but feeling dried out in my belief life these days. There was no response. However, later on, during the Sunday service i attend ,there was only one message ” Be joyful always.” and during today’s service, the main idea was “We should Live in the Rest of Jesus”.It is hard for me to believe that He prepared His word to me long time ago, and He provided the words exactly to me at right time in the right place. 

2. I was lucky enough to had this consulting with one of the Jangro?(seniors in church?who has served the church for decades and reached quite high position in the church.)I still do not understand how could i bump up to him after the Sunday service,but with openly honest, i told about my struggles and pains. I am not the person who will take anyone’s advice just because of the authorities, however I was deeply touched by his testimony : 

“when I look back the of my life, during past decades, the most joyful time for me was the time I served in the Church“ 

I felt shameful about myself that I started to ask question to myself : how come you feel stressful and even painful by serving Church? It supposed to be one of the most joyful time on the earth!

“Whatever you do in the church, let Holy Spirit to work before you, you should not work before Holy Spirit; don’t count on yourself, but the Holy Spirit.”

Look back on my service in the Church for past days, the way i approached the mission of Church was totally in a human way, no wonder I felt terribly tired  and discouraged by the results. 

“Definitely,there may be some negative thing on attending and serving a church, but only 1% out of 100%, all the other 99% supposed to be positive thing.

I fell into the negative way of thinking these days, which should not be happened on those who believe in Jesus Christ. I just forgot that we should focus on Jesus Christ, instead of getting hurt by human or disappointed by circumstance. 

Despite the fact that I am weak and committed a lot of sins, God was full of mercies and compassion that He spoke truth to me, and put faithful people into my life last week, so i can experience the recovery little by little. And Thankful that He assigned me a new mission soon, so I can stop wondering around and being used by Him in a way totally for His purpose.